Did you know that it says in the bible that man should seek peace and work for it?
1 Peter 3:11
Let him eschew evil, and do good; let him seek peace, and ensue it. (KJV)
He must stop doing evil and do good. He must look for peace and work for it. (NCV)
As children of light, peace is one of our inheritances in the spiritual body of Christ. However, peace like all the fruits of the spirit require discipline, work and endurance. Most of us don’t wake up in the morning being very patient or very gentle people, it requires consecration and the grace of God.
Recently I regained peace in my heart after de-cluttering my heart from past regrets, bitterness and iniquity. I began to pray and fast with a purpose, asking God to heal my heart. As the Holy Spirit delivered me from habitual sin and a broken heart, I found that my heart was silent from aches and pains and moans and groans, which had burdened me for years. For the first time in a long time, I wasn’t in pursuit of any relationship or trying to please and prove myself to anyone – trust me when I say it felt good!
However more recently, I’ve been struggling to keep this newly uncovered peace, and it baffled me as to why, when I’d overcome a mountain of stumbling blocks, and I hadn’t reverted back to those old habits.
It so happens that there was a driving force behind my dysfunctional relationships which led me to sin, it was the fear of loneliness and the desire to receive attention, some depiction of love and care. I’m not sure where it all began, but I remember moments in my childhood (and even today) when I felt incredibly alone, though I had siblings, moments where I was floating amongst a multitude of people, unseen and unheard. Times spent desperately clinging on to nice words and ignoring abusive behaviour and neglect which sometimes followed.
So my attention seeking, my need for recognition from others, my desire to be needed, loved and cared for, took new form, in excessive helpfulness at church, at home, wallowing in self-pity about how lonely I was, when I had friends asking me out, wanting to see me and me being “too busy”. And worst of all I became wrapped up in works as evidence of my faith and stopped believing in the salvation I had already inherited by the sacrifice of Jesus Christ.
The bible says: James 2:24 + 26
Ye see then how that by works a man is justified, and not by faith only.
For as the body without the spirit is dead, so faith without works is dead also.
However, there is one thing which has absolutely no life in it and that is works without faith – I was slowly slipping into “religiousness“.
As God is now revealing this to me, I invite you to join me on this journey of chasing and nurturing our peace, and exploring the various ways which we can lose peace – although it is our inheritance in Christ.
For unto us a child is born, unto us a son is given: and the government shall be upon his shoulder: and his name shall be called Wonderful, Counsellor, The mighty God, The everlasting Father, The Prince of Peace.
Have a blessed day, peace be with you x