Conversations with God about racism: Day 2 ‘Search me’

Every way of a man is right in his own eyes: but the Lord pondereth the hearts. Proverbs 21:2

Most of us will be familiar with Psalm 139. It’s the Psalm that talks about us being “fearfully and wonderfully made”. In this poetic Psalm, we read the psalmist’s reflections on God’s divine providence, as creator of every living thing. What is interesting is that after all is said and done the psalmist concludes with a petition for God to search his heart.

23 Search me, O God, and know my heart: try me, and know my thoughts: 24 And see if there be any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.

how is your heart?

At this time of uproar against racial injustice – how is your heart? When God wanted to choose the next king of Israel, He sent his faithful servant, the prophet Samuel to anoint him. Samuel expected the decision to be based on birthright or experience or stature, but as God corrected Samuel in 1 Samuel 16:6-7, He revealed to us that He judges the heart.

6 And it came to pass, when they were come, that he looked on Eliab, and said, Surely the Lord’s anointed is before him. 7 But the Lord said unto Samuel, Look not on his countenance, or on the height of his stature; because I have refused him: for the Lord seeth not as man seeth; for man looketh on the outward appearance, but the Lord looketh on the heart.

God searches the heart of man because, from the heart flows all the issues of life (Proverbs 4:23). When the video of the murder of George Floyd started circulating on social media, there was so much noise – outrage, pain, grief, confusion – it was overwhelming. I couldn’t think, I couldn’t process my emotions, I felt so grieved – heart broken that one human being could do this to another, because of the colour of his skin and it wasn’t the first time.

I asked God, why are some people so evil – how could this happen in broad daylight, in front if witnesses who could film it? Then the Holy Spirit said to me, it’s a heart issue.

it’s a heart issue.

At the core of racism and other injustices constantly playing out all over the world even at this very moment, is the consequence of sin – evil. Man has the ability to conceive evil in his heart, even when unprovoked and unjustified.

One thing is certain, justice must prevail and just laws must be implemented, all citizens should at the very least feel safe and secure in the state which governs them, irrespective of their race. But if racism is a heart issue at its core, then I ask – what stops us from holding these extremely discriminatory views? For many it is convieniently hidden beneath the surface, until it gradually begins to slip through the cracks – our preconceptions, conversations, judgements, biases – in our homes, at school, at work.

Today, simply go before God and pray and reflect on the prayer of Psalm 139:24. Lord, “see if there is any offensive way in me and lead me in the way everlasting”.

**This is a four-part series so please read posts in chronological order, and share your thoughts**

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