He giveth power to the faint; and to them that have no might he increaseth strength.
Sometimes our determination to appear strong and resilient, slows down our deliverance.
I’m not encouraging victimhood, but transparency before God. Some of us have even made “faith” a barrier between us and God.
“I’m “believing” God”
“He will do it in His time”
– which at times, are not expressions of true faith in God, but simply caveats for inaction, prideful complacency and ignorance posing as faith. Preventing us from being real before the one who knows the fabric of our souls.
So what does all this have to do with getting naked? In the garden of eden, when God created Adam and Eve, He made them naked, and they seem to be unfazed by this. But after they sinned and their eyes were “open” , they hid from God, in their most vulnerable state. They didn’t consider that God was accustomed to their nakedness, but instead they hid from Him.
Adam and Eve’s nakedness wasn’t the issue, their naked, exposed physical form wasn’t what separated them from God. But their reluctance to be naked, vulnerable, transparent, before God – that separated them from Him.
Ask, where in my life am I trying to present the “best” version of myself to You (God), when You can see every crack, fracture, bulge and brokenness?
My weaknesses, my weariness cannot separate me from God, but my false pretences can.
David was the second king of Israel, chosen by God and yet he made numerous mistakes. He impregnated another man’s wife, committed murder, sending Uriah to his death on the battlefield. He was greatly bereaved, losing a child days after birth, and he suffered ongoing conflict within his own immediate family. But flaws and all, David was always quick to appear naked before God. Whether in his praise or repentance.
In 2 Samuel 6:14 -23 we see this demonstrated. David’s response to the comments made by his wife Michal, further emphasises this point:
20 When David returned home to bless his household, Michal daughter of Saul came out to meet him and said, “How the king of Israel has distinguished himself today, going around half-naked in full view of the slave girls of his servants as any vulgar fellow would!”
21 David said to Michal, “It was before the Lord, who chose me rather than your father or anyone from his house when he appointed me ruler over the Lord’s people Israel—I will celebrate before the Lord.
22 I will become even more undignified than this, and I will be humiliated in my own eyes. But by these slave girls you spoke of, I will be held in honor.”
2 Samuel 6:20 – 22 (NIV)
I like the term undignified – ask, how undignified is my praise, my worship, my surrenderance, my prayer before God? Many of us have become too good at “keeping it together”, that we cannot be broken before God – so He cannot heal us.
If you are familiar with the story of Hannah from 1 Samuel – you’ll recall how her petitions for a child made her appear unhinged in the house of God. To the extent that the priest Eli asked her, isn’t it too early for you to be drunk?
Imagine if it was this day and age, how many of us have the desperation of Hannah within us, and yet we are making “pretty” prayers before God and man. Jesus clearly says in Luke 4:16 -21 He came to set the captives free.
The Spirit of the Lord is upon me, because he hath anointed me to preach the gospel to the poor; he hath sent me to heal the brokenhearted, to preach deliverance to the captives, and recovering of sight to the blind, to set at liberty them that are bruised,
In Luke 5:31 He rightly said that those who are “whole” do not need a physician, but they who are sick. The truth is that none of us are whole, but only some of us are willing to acknowledge this before God, so only some of us experience the fullness of His grace.
Make up your mind today, and every day here on, to be completely naked before God and He will be your covering. He will clothe you with His grace. He will shelter you from the elements of this life – if you acknowledge your vulnerability. As Paul said “When I am weak, the I am strong”.
Teach us how Lord in Jesus name.
9 And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.
10 Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses for Christ’s sake: for when I am weak, then am I strong.
2 Corinthians 12:9 – 10
Roses may be red and violets blue but Love is… NOT poetry
My Dad’s wedding gift to us was a simple assignment. Read 1 Corinthians 13. Of course we were both already familiar with this passage, and studied it together during our courtship.
I remember us attempting this whlist in the first days of our newlywed high – with the best intentions, it seemed like the easiest task. Piece. Of. Cake.
But, I can safely say three years later – actually being married takes the words of 1 Cor 13 from “nice ” to NECESSARY!
When I heard this scripture at weddings it sounded “nice”, I would day dream about having this love one day. But now within a marriage I’m learning…
Love is not poetry, though it can be inspiring, beautiful and poetic
Love isn’t a fuzzy feeling
Love usually isn’t getting ‘your way’ by any means
Love doesn’t do the bear minimum
Love goes above and beyond
Love isn’t fleeting and thrill seeking
Love isn’t always social media friendly or retweetable, or likeable
Love has no filter and no hiding place
Love doesn’t play games
Love doesn’t have a plan B
You can’t “fall out of love” because you didn’t “fall” in to it
Love is a choice
Love is usually not the popular choice, but the best choice.
God is Love
God is Love, and if you truly believe this as a Christian it will transform your approach to loving your spouse, a sibling, colleague or stranger.
As I encourage you to (re)visit 1 Corinthians 13 today, I ask – can YOU love like this?
Though I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I have become sounding brass or a clanging cymbal.
And though I have the gift of prophecy, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and though I have all faith, so that I could remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing.
And though I bestow all my goods to feed the poor, and though I give my body to be burned, but have not love, it profits me nothing.
Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up;
does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil; does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth;
bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
Love never fails.
But whether there are prophecies, they will fail; whether there are tongues, they will cease; whether there is knowledge, it will vanish away.
I Corinthians 13:1-8 NKJV
17 Now the Lord is the Spirit; and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is liberty. (2 Corinthians 3:17)
There’s this freedom in Jesus that I so long for. I’m certain it’s in Him. I see glimpses of it on people’s faces when we worship. When we are in His presence. When we stop caring and raise our hands, or sit still contemplating His Love or lie prostrate in surrender before the Almighty. when we can no longer “keep it together” and allow the Spirit of God to come into our hearts and lives. The freedom to discover and be who He has called us to be in Himself.
32(John 8:32 see end for full ref)
I long to have that freedom on a Monday morning when I step into work.
I long to have that freedom on a Monday morning when I step into work. I desire to experience that freedom on a Sunday afternoon when I’m in fellowship with my church family. I want that freedom at gatherings mixing with people from various walks of life. I yearn to walk in that freedom – even as I travel on trains and buses, making my way to some destination, having unexpected encounters with other commuters.
I think it’s a great robbery for any individual in the Church of God to imitate someone else or some idea, and forsake who God has intended for us to be in Him. To be free – that too requires faith, and could also be part of the abundant life we are promised in Jesus. At one point or another we all struggle with the question of who we are, who we aspire to be and who God is. I believe there is another level of freedom stored away in discovering answers to these questions. And John 8:32 (above) confirms this.
In the world people pursue practical, outward forms of freedom – some are justified, like freedom from discrimination or a dictatorship. But the world also campaigns for a caricature of “freedom”, a false sense of “freedom” that sends us further away from the presence of God and into further captivity. Okay so that’s in “the world”, can I suggest that in the Church some of us maybe walking around on eggshells, putting on a performance, working so hard to be who we are not called to be – whilst the person God created us to be, the purpose and desires He has for us are abandoned. Some of us have set ourselves an impossible assignment of trying to be someone else whilst the role we are called to play remains dormant and the work unfinished, until God calls someone else. Maybe this was part of the issue with Saul going above and beyond to do someone else’s job (in this case Samuel’s). Hastening to perform that which God had not instructed him to perform, and losing his God-ordained inheritance in the process.
9 So Saul said, “Bring a burnt offering and peace offerings here to me.” And he offered the burnt offering. 10 Now it happened, as soon as he had finished presenting the burnt offering, that Samuel came; and Saul went out to meet him, that he might greet him. 11 And Samuel said, “What have you done?”
(1 Samuel 13:9-11a see end for full ref)
Lately I’ve been hearing the word “freedom” in my spirit and as I desire it more and more it causes me to delight in worshipping God, because there I can have an audience of One and be free and transparent before Him. My intention here is not to point fingers, make accusations or even any assumptions, but to cause us to ponder the question. Am I free to be my authentic self?
Am I free?
I believe God calls us to His standard of godly living and righteousness, and I believe part of that standard is the freedom to be our authentic selves in Jesus. Think about Jesus’ short time spent in Gaderenes – as soon as the man who was spiritually bound, a prisoner and social outcast encountered Jesus – he was set free. But watch the reaction of the community who had seen this man wasting away, cutting himself, living a life of oppression, a life without purpose or freedom. What did they do when Jesus set him free? They asked Jesus to leave.
They asked Jesus to leave
15 Then they came to Jesus, and saw the one who had been demon-possessed and had the legion, sitting and clothed and in his right mind. And they were afraid. 16 And those who saw it told them how it happened to him who had been demon-possessed, and about the swine. 17 Then they began to plead with Him to depart from their region.
(Mark 5:15-17 see end for full ref)
How do I discover my ‘authentic” self – what does that even mean, especially in a “social media society” obsessed with outward appearances and false impressions. I go back to the One who made me, my Father in heaven to discover my identity and gain my freedom.
15 My frame was not hidden from You, When I was made in secret, And skillfully wrought in the lowest parts of the earth. 16 Your eyes saw my substance, being yet unformed. And in Your book they all were written, The days fashioned for me, When as yet there were none of them.
(Psalm 139:15-16 see end for full ref)
Worship is so important
Which brings me back to the initial thoughts behind this post. Worship is so important. As I pour out and empty myself with a lifestyle of worship and surrendrance to God, my hope and prayer is that God sets me free from every facade preventing me from being who He has created me to be.
Have you had an experience which freed you from living a lie, where you felt loosed if you like, liberated?
I would love to hear your thoughts on this – we’re here to learn!
Passages to read and reflect on:
So… I’ve been feeling sorry for myself lately.
During my primary school years – around age 9 or 10, one of the most anticipated events at the end of the school day was the ice cream man. As my mind shifted from the joy of not being the last one to be let out of the classroom (everything was a competition when I was younger lol), I could hear the chugging ice cream van parked on the other side of the leafy school fence. Most of the time I would have already spent my pocket money for that day on sweets, which I bought whilst making my way to school in the morning – golf ball chewing gums, jaw breaker fire balls, strawberry pencils – the list was endless. On those days I had no choice but to reluctantly walk past the ice cream van, envying the reception kids, who were not old enough to appreciate the flake vanilla ice cream they were allowing to melt all over the sleeves of their school uniform.
Other days I resisted the morning sweet binge in order to buy my double cone, three scoop ice cream with nuts, sprinkles and strawberry sauce on top. I had a very sweet tooth growing up. But on most days, I had done the former and therefore missed out on ice cream after school, so I felt sorry for myself. It’s not fair, if only I was like the kids whose parents picked them up from school, surely I would also enjoy this privilege. The truth is I needed to practice self discipline, sometimes it’s better we don’t get everything we want, when we want – everyday could not be “ice cream man day” because that would be bad for my health and I would also probably take it for granted – it took me a while to learn this.
Some 16 years later, as I analyse my current place in life, I still find myself grumbling “it’s not fair”. Perhaps there are aspects of your life that cause you to do the same. Why isn’t my reality like so and so’s? Why can’t everything be perfect all the time? It got to the point where I started to question God: why did You allow things to be this way? I was throwing the biggest pity party. Then I started thinking about Job and how unfair his whole experience was. Here was a guy who was so “faithful” to God, even offering sacrifices for the potential sins of his children and yet God still allowed the devil to take everything away from him! Surely he didn’t deserve that,
why would our loving, good God do such a thing?
The Holy Spirit led me to the book of Job and directed me to read the last 5 chapters and they completely shut down my pity party. If you are feeling discontent or frustrated with where you are in life or a particular ongoing situation like Job, I would encourage you to read just these five chapters – Job 38 to 42.
The truth is our understanding of “morality”, “justice”, “good” is so warped by our sinful nature that we can never ever rightly question God. Yes you can take your questions to God like I did, but accusing God’s nature and character because you’re uncomfortable with where you are in life right now, only shows how wavering and fickle our faith in Him really is.
My mind went to sessions of praise and worship were I had heartily bellowed the song lyrics of the band Housefires’ “good good Father”. I thought to myself, am I not the same person that passionately sang these words to this same God? Why was I struggling to grasp His goodness now? The truth is God is constantly molding and shaping our faith, so that it is steady, firm and sure.
And not only this, but [with joy] let us exult in our sufferings and rejoice in our hardships, knowing that hardship (distress, pressure, trouble) produces patient endurance; and endurance, proven character (spiritual maturity); and proven character, hope and confident assurance [of eternal salvation].
Our faith in God should not be based solely on how comfortable He has made us, or the fact that we prayed and got what we prayed for, or the latest “good thing” that has happened in our lives. God is calling us to a faith that is based on our reverence and understanding of who He is first and foremost.
Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.
It isn’t logical, it isn’t transactional, it’s supernatural – it requires the inner work of the Holy Spirit to sustain this kind of faith, but it is possible to believe God simply because He is God – even when you’re in the storm. You’ve heard of child like faith – it’s very simple – young children believe even before they’ve seen the evidence. So things might be really challenging and discouraging for you at the moment, be encouraged things will get better. My prayer is that the Lord will enable us to wait upon Him, our hope will not be disappointed!
I Peter 5:10
But may the God of all grace, who called us to His eternal glory by Christ Jesus, after you have suffered a while, perfect, establish, strengthen, and settle you.
May God enable us to be steadfast in our faith and confidence in Him, so that even in the valleys, the fiery furnace, the oppositions our hope will be firmly planted in Him until He comes to our aid in Jesus name amen.
Peace & Love ❤
When “crusades” are held in parts of Africa, in Asia – ministers share the hope of the Gospel, and they witness about salvation through Christ Jesus. They travel equipped with the simple and needful message of the Gospel. But in parts of the West, sometimes unfortunately it’s gimics, fancy words and complacency.
Two weeks ago I was watching a live feed on good ol’ social media, from the Reinhard Bonnke farewell crusade in Nigeria. With the little I know about the evangelist and founder of Christ For All Nations (CfaN), his ministry over the last five decades appears to be driven by a desire to take the Gospel of Jesus Christ to all the nations of the world, especially Africa.
And Jesus came and spake unto them, saying, All power is given unto me in heaven and in earth. Go ye therefore, and teach all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost: Teaching them to observe all things whatsoever I have commanded you: and, lo, I am with you always, even unto the end of the world. Amen.
After half a century Bonnke’s “farewell” crusade felt nothing like a send off, or an ocassion soley orchestrated to honour the evangelist. As I watched the live feed, it looked and sounded like another opportunity to declare the hope of Christ to millions of souls. In fact the minister continuing Bonnke’s work at CfaN – Daniel Kolenda was the one speaking, and he delivered a simple yet powerful message:
It captured the hearts of hundreds of thousands of people in the crowd. Confirming that the hope of salvation through Christ is enough.
But I have to ask, over in the West, do we think we’ve “graduated” from the Gospel of Jesus Christ? Do we expect the Gospel to conform to our “modern” “advanced” “developed” concerns and ideals? At times the West is presented as a big brother to the rest of the world, a precendence setter when it comes to many issues. However the truth is, no matter what impressive intellect, material wealth and earthly possessions a nation amasses, we are all in need of the divine, transforming hope of the Gospel of Jesus Christ.
I’m not referring to all churches in the West of course. I live in the UK so I can’t speak for the rest of Europe or the US. There are still churches in the UK that are driven by the truth of the Gospel and The Great Commission. The senior Pastor of my church makes a point of teaching on the foundational core truth of the Gospel every year. He returns back to basics – salvation, repentance, faith, the Kingdom of God. I’m sure there are other ministers and Christians who do the same in their congregations and families. Nonetheless, though I pass by several Church buildings, event flyers and billboards, day after day – I can’t help but notice the Church blending-in all too well in this generation.
Have we become too “comfortable”for the Gospel? Are we bored of the Gospel? There are those risking their lives to hear and share the Gospel of Jesus Christ, and yet some of us are not willing to risk even our reputation before strangers. At times I wonder why the zeal, the passion, the works, the miracles seem greater in other parts of the world. The world is full of tags and labels weighing the influence and power of nation against nation. Whilst pushing into the background spiritual matters.
If we start to teach the foundational truth of the Gospel of Jesus Christ within our churches and families. If we take personal responsibility for equiping ourselves with The Good News, it will stir up our faith and convictions and give us the courage to declare this same truth inside and outside the comfort of church. If the enemy can be so bold to step inside the four walls of a church and attack a congregation, why are we politely keeping the Gospel to ourselves, and considerately keeping the church doors closed? For fear we might make too much noise and make others uncomfortable? Let them hear!
Ask yourself – what can I do?
I pray that God Almighty will give us such life transforming, mind blowing, soul liberating revelations of who He is and why Jesus Christ was manifested to the world. That we will be like the disciples of old: we will not be able to “behave” ourselves, sitting nicely, keeping quiet. We will forego our socialised comforts, and go out into the world and preach the truth of the Gospel of Jesus Christ in every sphere – communities, cities, schools, families and nations in Jesus name amen.
Peace and Love ❤
I had big trust issues growing up. You would think this made me guarded, secretive, defensive. No. Instead I made myself vulnerable to everyone. I decided the best way to protect myself from disappointment, was to have no expectations of anyone. I recall my explanation to a friend – since I couldn’t bring myself to trust anyone, I would make sure anything I disclosed to even my closest friends, I could disclose to a stranger, and I often did. I had no filter, I shared almost everything with anyone who had ears, and to no surprise I was taken advantage of.
A few days before the wedding, I spoke with a colleague at work. He had been receiving updates about the ‘big day’ during our lunch breaks, for the past few months. (He’s been married for 6 years!) He asked me “are you ready to make yourself vulnerable?”
Make myself vulnerable? His question sent thumps running to my heart straight away. I didn’t like the sound of that. Being vulnerable would mean allowing my flaws and faults to be exposed to the one person whose opinion matters most to me! I’ve just mastered the whole ‘guarding’ myself thing, and now I’m being asked to let down my guard? What, that can’t be right!
The beautiful thing is that like God with mankind; when we allow our imperfections to the surface, we can finally experience the fullness of love the other party is prepared to show us, flaws and all. This is also the first step to tackling those flaws.
Even just some days before our wedding day and God was still pointing out a major flaw to me, through my colleague. The scripture in 1 Corinthians 13 makes more sense now. I understood the being “patient” and not being “proud” part, however there are some things that love does in Corinthians that I didn’t understand.
Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things.
In other words, love is vulnerable, has no secrets, is trusting, unguarded. Only then can 2 really become 1. Remember that God will invest so much in a person, with every possibility of that person rejecting His assignment and His love. Remember Eden, God crafted a perfect display of His complete love for mankind, and despite His caution, Adam and Eve still betrayed His trust. Or what about Jesus going to the cross, God made His only Son completely vulnerable and at the mercy of men set out to kill Him, why because He loves us.
You’ll never be more vulnerable to any human being than your spouse. If you’re not ready to be vulnerable with your future husband or wife, then you need to ask yourself what kind of marriage you want now or in the future. Not one based on fear, pride, lacking trust and divided – two individuals “doing life” together. I believe God has something more beautiful, sincere and more intimate in mind for marriage. It is the merging of two journeys, the binding together of two lives, the establishment of a single union before God and man. That’s why it’s so important for it to be the right person.
Marriage may not be a bed of roses, but with the right man, and the right woman you can cultivate you own unique garden that works for the two of you.
So, are you ready to make yourself vulnerable? Start first with Christ, it’s working for me…
Peace & Love
It isn’t my relationship that redeemed me.
Some of us have been to terrible, dark places in our lives – paths we blame ourselves for journeying; so that if any man or woman should choose to love us, deep within us we believe there lies our redemption.
“She can be loved”
His proposal tells the world “she can be loved”, and having her by his side makes him ”desirable”. Is it partly because, although we say Christ has redeemed us, we continue to hold ourselves guilty of our past? This is certain, you will never be able to pay for the life you lived, and there is nothing you can do to change your past. But His blood is more powerful, more than capable of helping you to recover from those mistakes and healing your traumas. His blood calls you a new creation. Even if you were the worst of sinners, there is no darkness, no failure, no history that the blood of Jesus cannot overcome and wash away.
“…bought at a much greater price”
Do you long desperately for ”Mister right’‘? Well contrary to the world’s fairytale there is no knight in shining armour who can save you, because the truth is – we all need saving. Maybe you’re already in a relationship? Do you love it when people talk about your relationship? Does it give you a confidence in your self-worth, which you dare not carry alone? The truth is, no relationship status, no ring can redeem you, because you were bought at a much greater price. Are you able to love and appreciate your worth, the unique value placed in you by God? Or are you still angry and still ashamed? I find I feel more confident since getting engaged, it’s like you carry a stamp on your left hand that says “you’re worth it” (like the L’Orèal ads). But the novelty will soon wear off and then what? Will you seek for the next thing to make you feel redeemed and cleared of your past?
Christ is before you asking you, “Woman where are thine accusers?” Think about the woman accused of adultery, even after the accusations ceased why did she remain there, stood before Jesus? Perhaps her greatest condemnation – the one that kept her where her accusers left her, was her own. What have you done wrong? How have you messed up? Whatever it is, I have news for you, you have been redeemed. You don’t have to justify God’s love towards you or His blessings in your life. There is no need to feel ashamed anymore, when the spotlight is on you. They don’t see who you used to be, they don’t see your past sins and struggles, they see God’s glory. They see YOU, redeemed and refined by Christ – because you are. Jesus took your shame to the cross, you have been redeemed and there is no catch, but believe that your redemption is in Christ.
Your redemption is not pegged on your relationship status. When it comes to the matters of your inner-self, your relationship status is irrelevant. Start addressing those memories that try to convince you that you haven’t changed. Read about Paul, he could have carried the shame and guilt of a notorious past, persecuting the church. He would have been justified to seek the approval of the people he was sent to share the Gospel with, but instead he allowed his identity and call in Christ to be the driving force of his life. You can too.
It isn’t my relationship that redeemed me. I was a wreck, and Christ saw me, broken, desperate and tired, and He carried me. Long before my Fiancé noticed me or even knew who I was, long before there was any proposal in sight, Christ began a work of redemption in me. So I encourage you today, to forgive yourself and forgive your past, and begin to learn about your redemption that is everlasting in Christ. As my Pastor often says – “your past is past”, and no man can, no man has redeemed you and no man will, but the living God.
May God help us to believe His unconditional love towards us, may He teach us step out of the shadows of our past and hand over every negative memory and guilt to Him, and may God teach us to truly love ourselves, in Jesus name amen.
Peace & Love